Scar is healing up nicely. I am off crutches as of a few days ago. I still have a slight limp, when I am walking. I am sure it will get better as the days pass.
Still have limitations on what I can do. I still try to avoid heavy lifting or any thing significant enough at work or around town, to allow healing to continue.
I need to look on positive side and not of any negative statistics on what could happen if this recurs. But it is hard not to since, I am just three months away from first surgery, and one month from the last one. Then playing the waiting game. Hard to return back to life and think everything is normal. In actuality in bleeds into everyday life, more so than I realized.
Going from being five years free of a pheochromocytoma, and with the sarcoma being diagnosed. Life doesn’t return to normal after surgery. But a new one is actually started. Life is looked at differently, and appreciated more. There are more risks you are willing to take. A chance to step out of your comfort zone and go into boundaries you never thought possible.
As life goes on around you, people continue in their same pattern. As you flow into a different one, but unaware to those around you.
A chance to experience things that can bring you joy. There are places to be, things to do. The concept of time is what we take for granted. We can fill our time with useless things, and not realize the pattern we are in day to day.
There is a lot of free time. We have to learn to put it to good use. Charting out, what you do in a day is a good tool to use. When you look back on the week, it can be surprising. Do we let things bother us that can creep into other parts of our day. Those aspects need to be marked and eliminated if possible. We need to deal with those and not ignore the underlining issue.
Once you get a better grip of time spent, you can value it a lot more. Get out and experience life. We came from dust and til dust we shall return.
I for one am appreciative of all that I’ve been through and won’t let any tumor keep me from feeling a since of normal. I will continue on.